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Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Have you ever lost yourself in a kiss? I mean pure psychedelic inebriation. Not just lustful petting but transcendental metamorphosis when you became aware that the greatness of this being was breathing into you. Licking the sides and corners of your mouth, like sealing a thousand fleshy envelopes filled with the essence of your passionate being and then opened by the same mouth and delivered back to you, over and over again – the first kiss of the rest of your life. A kiss that confirms that the universe is aligned, that the world’s greatest resource is love, and maybe even that God is a woman. With or without a belief in God, all kisses are metaphors decipherable by allocations of time, circumstance, and understanding.”

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

I love them both; I always will. But this isn't about me.
"I didn't lie, Nina. I did the right thing." Patrick's hand comes up to my face, and I turn my cheek into his palm.
I will be leaving him. I will be leaving everyone.

"The right thing," I repeat, "is thinking before I act, so that I stop hurting the people I love."
"Your family," he murmurs.
I shake my head. "No," I say, my goodbye. "I meant you."

Saturday, December 25, 2010

"Nina used to write me every other day. I was overseas, in the service, and that was the only thing I looked forward to." He smiles faintly. "She told me when she met you. Told me where you took her on dates. But the time she told me that she'd climbed some mountain with you... that was when I knew I'd lost her."
"Mount Katahdin? Nothing happened that day."
"No. You just climbed it, and came down," Patrick says. "The thing is, Nina's terrified of heights. She gets so sick, sometimes, that she faints. But she loved you so much, she was willing to follow you anywhere. Even three thousand feet up." He pushes away from the wall, approaching Caleb. "You know what's pathetic? That you get to live with this... this goddess. That out of all the guys in the world, she picked you. You were handed this incredible gift, and you don't even know it's infront of you."

Thursday, December 16, 2010



Last Christmas I gave you my heart and the very next day, you gave it away. This year, to save me from tears, I'll give it to someone special.

I wrapped it up and sent it with a note saying "I love you". I meant it.
Now I know what a fool I've been, but if you kissed me now

I know you'd fool me again.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

When you talk to older couples who, you know, have been in love for 30 or 40 or 50 years, alright, it's always the guy who says, "I knew."
I knew. Right from the beginning.... I'm that guy, Bones.
I'm that guy. I know.

Monday, December 6, 2010


Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked,
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya;

You know I'd do anything for ya
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby
But you won't do the same;

Sunday, December 5, 2010

" 'What' and ‘if’ are two words as nonthreatening as words come, but put them together side-by side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: ‘What if?'...

I don't know how your story ended, but I know that if what you felt then was love - true love - then it's never too late. If it was true then why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart.

I don't know what a love like that feels like... a love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for... but I'd like to believe if I ever felt it, I'd have the courage to seize it. I hope you had the courage to seize it, Claire. And if you didn't, I hope one day that you will."

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

It's a beautiful night, we're looking for something dumb to do
hey baby, i think i wanna marry you

is it the look in your eyes? or is it this dancing juice?
who cares baby, i think i wanna marry you!


Tuesday, November 30, 2010


If an angel came down to me
Asked what I would do differently
I would say nothing you see
I love someone truly

And if I do not see tomorrow
You know it's gonna be alright
'Cause I got my Baby
Right by my side

And if the rain ain't falling
And the sun ain't shining
It makes no difference to me
I'm right where I wanna be

And if tonight is my last
I wanna spend it with you

Monday, November 29, 2010


I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through the brain
Yes, I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same




Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Rebecca: By the time that I realized that I’d made a mistake, that I’d still be the same person... I think there’s a moment for two people where they can either catch fire or... Seeley and I, we missed our moment. Do you understand?




Tuesday, November 23, 2010


This is the way I need to wake,
I wake to you.
You never loved me,
All that I dreamt had been untrue.



Me without you is like
A sneaker without laces,
A geek without braces,
Asentencewithoutspaces.

:)

Sunday, November 21, 2010

“A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, and make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life.” ~Elizabeth Gilbert

Intervention


I need a love intervention.

You're all I want to dream about,
but thoughts of you keep me awake.
Can you sense how much I want you?
How much I need you?

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

It's hard to wait around for something you know may never happen,



but it's harder when you know it's everything you want.

Monday, November 15, 2010

"She belonged to me," He said simply. "She was, you know, all the things I wasn't. And I was all the things she wasn't. She could paint circles around anyone; I can't even draw a straight line. She was never into sports; I've always been." He lifted his outstretched palm and curled his fingers.





"Her hand," he said. "It fit mine."

I went to the doctor and guess what he told me?
He said "girl, you'd better try to have fun no matter what you do."
But he's a fool because nothing compares,
Nothing compares to you.

I think that you are lovely.

Sunday, November 14, 2010


I guess I should say thank you
for cutting all my strings,
But if it's all the same to you,
I wish you'd left my wings.


Saturday, November 13, 2010


"I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane."



Friday, November 12, 2010

Underneath It All


"You're beautiful, but that's not why I like you."

"Why do you like me?"

"Because you're smart."

He's the only person to ever tell me that he liked me because I'm smart. Everyone else immediately skips to something else. "you're funny!" or "you have such nice eyes!", but nobody ever says anything about my intelligence. It's not really their fault, it's just that people think you don't want to hear about your brain. Brains aren't sexy you see. Girls don't want to hear about their smarts, they want you to tell them how melodic their laugh is or how their eyes sparkle. But to hear him say that he liked me because I was smart made me fall even more in love with him.

He didn't know it was exactly what I'd been dying to hear and that made it all that much sweeter.

He saw through me.

Sometimes I wonder if he saw all of me and that's why he left.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Loyal To Love

Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls.
And sometimes all you need is one.

Is there really one person walking this earth right now who you are destined to be with? Are you only a half of a whole? Do you have a soul mate?

I believe that the answer to all these questions is yes.

Some people search all their lives for that one person to complete them.

But what if you've already found them, had them, and lost them?

What do you do then?

Would you stay loyal to love?